I woke up this morning feeling overwhelmed and inadequate. Today is the only Saturday that three of the students will be here, so I want them to get to do some souvenier shopping, canopy tour (zip line), and white water rafting before they leave - so this is the day.
But my head is awash in details to consider, problems to solve, and things to do. I am vague on some parts of the project, especially those dealing with the concrete canal that channels water to the generator. I woke up early and tried to go back to sleep, but I couldn't. I got up to get some coffee (probably not what my nervous system needs) and chatted with Ryan about some details. I was comforted by the fact that he has experience with concrete. And I was reminded that Dr. Jordan, who is arriving today, and that he is an expert in materials and the chair of our Mechanical Engineering Department, and that I don't have to be the point man for every detail.
I find verses in Psalm 40 to be of great comfort. I am reminded this is God's work, not my work. It is in His strength, not mine, that anything good can come out of this project. I share them with you here:
"O Lord, don't hold back your tender mercies from me! My only hope is in your love and faithfulness. Otherwise I perish, for problems far to big for me to solve are piled higher than my head. Meanwhile my sins, too many to count, have all caught up with me and I am ashamed to look up. My heart quails within me."