Saturday, July 12, 2008

Feeling Overwhelmed and Inadequate

I woke up this morning feeling overwhelmed and inadequate. Today is the only Saturday that three of the students will be here, so I want them to get to do some souvenier shopping, canopy tour (zip line), and white water rafting before they leave - so this is the day.

But my head is awash in details to consider, problems to solve, and things to do. I am vague on some parts of the project, especially those dealing with the concrete canal that channels water to the generator. I woke up early and tried to go back to sleep, but I couldn't. I got up to get some coffee (probably not what my nervous system needs) and chatted with Ryan about some details. I was comforted by the fact that he has experience with concrete. And I was reminded that Dr. Jordan, who is arriving today, and that he is an expert in materials and the chair of our Mechanical Engineering Department, and that I don't have to be the point man for every detail.

I find verses in Psalm 40 to be of great comfort. I am reminded this is God's work, not my work. It is in His strength, not mine, that anything good can come out of this project. I share them with you here:

"O Lord, don't hold back your tender mercies from me! My only hope is in your love and faithfulness. Otherwise I perish, for problems far to big for me to solve are piled higher than my head. Meanwhile my sins, too many to count, have all caught up with me and I am ashamed to look up. My heart quails within me."

2 comments:

Bluejay said...

When we are in the midst of difficulties, it is hard sometimes to understand how God can use problems in our lives to bring about something good...but He can. Our great God has already foreseen your need and has called upon Christian strangers to lift you up in prayer. (Jason's Mom)

Melanie said...

PT: I'm so proud of everything that you guys are doing over there, and what you all are sharing with Honduras. You guys are all amazing, and I'm praying for you all! I admire all of you! Enjoy every minute of the journey!